Wednesday, July 21, 2010

S, IMY.

Something happened last nite. My sleep was so dreadful. I kept dreaming of her.
S, please don't do that to me again, my heart shattered because of your action.
I'm glad to have took the initiative to talk about the issue with you this morning.
I miss the good old days, when we're still young; and the place we used to hang around, where we always share our tranquil moments together and talk about the future, our passion and philosophies of life.
How long have it been since we last talk to each other,Just the two of us?
You taught me a lot of things in the past, you shared your dreams with me and were always there to encouraged me whenever I stumble in life.
There's no words that can possibly describe how I feel towards you. You're my guidance, you're my teacher, you're my role model, you're my senior, you're my friend. You're the special one.
It doesn't mean that I don't give a damn if I'm not there when you need me. I do care, but in a different way. It's awkward for me to approach you just like that after what had happened. And you already have that special someone taken care of your everything. I just feel like it's futile for me to worry so much. All of that sudden, I thought I am a surplus. You had no idea how I feel.
But I'm happy it's all over now. It turned out that we had misunderstood each other. And I really appreciate your words. It helps a lot to a certain extent. You made me realized what friends are for. I hope there're still plenty of chances to talk to you, like this, again. I MISS YOU.

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

living in the radio,lost in the stereo's sound.

I'm gonna change my template once I'm free to do it.
ooh, and yeah im running my own business now.
One last thing to be done and I'm all set to announce it.
I knew I've been putting it aside for quite some time due to some unfavorable circumstances.
But now everything seems to be going back on the right track except for the fact that I'm still not okay with my life.
ARGH...I guess I'll be alright again before you even realized something's wrong with me.duh.

Gimme a break. I need some air to breathe.

Buddha said Being successful cannot bring you happiness cause happiness is the key to success.If you're happy with what you do,you'll be successful.
Now my life is screwed, I'm not happy at all in the things I do.
I don't have a passion for business.
I don't like to read thousand of pages of a fucking damn textbook which the content will eventually became a history once I step my feet out of the varsity.
I don't like to search for journals or articles by sacrificing the whole night and skimming what can be implemented in my bloody assignments.
I don't like the hectic life I'm going through now.
I don't like the fact that I'm actually struggling to even breathe...

Gimme any good reasons that I should be happy!
If you're telling me that I should be grateful for what I have, that I can breathe and talk and walk and eat,SCRAP THAT!!!

Sunday, July 18, 2010

Reality Check


Thursday, July 1, 2010

A few words for myself

At least it's the first day of the rest of my life
I can't be afraid
Cause it's my turn to be brave

And I might still cry
And I might still bleed
These thorns in my side
This heart on my sleeve
And lightening may strike
This ground at my feet
And I might still crash
But I still believe

This is the moment I stand here all alone
With everything I have inside, everything I own