Don't lie if you're not a great liar. You can't get through me sweetie.

I’m terrified now. I have no idea whom to trust. Why are we Homo Sapiens can be like that? I thought we’re civilized. Where have all the honest people gone? Are they all dead? If I can be honest with you, why can’t you do the same? Am I really that threatening? So you said you don’t have a blog but you asked for mine and I told you. I let you access any pieces of information about me without doubt yet this is how I get treated from you. Do you really think that I’m so stupid that I will never found your blog? Don’t tell me you don’t blog in a blog and that blog is not a blog! I’m such a fool, believing the wrong people again and again. Thanks to you, I’m considering changing my url once again! 

Lesson Learned.

A least I learned something today. 
Never allow someone to be your priority while letting yourself to be their option.


PS：是不是要等到我銷聲匿跡了，
        你們才懂得關心我？

对话

爲什麽我像是和世界脫了節。

最近的我到底是怎麼了？

人家的改變是美好的，

我卻是相反的。

不管我如何努力的往上爬，

人家在山頂了，

我依然還在谷底。

心中有太多問號，

卻沒人可以給我確實的答案。

要你誠懇真的有那麼難嗎？

還是你们知道是你们的錯，

所以有口難言？

陳幾何時我們變這樣了？

突然的冷漠很惘然。

我不曉得是我變了還是你們變了，

大家都長大了，

所以更懂得猜心是吧？

是我太軟弱了嗎?

也許是的，

所以只有像我這樣的人才會為你們難過。

可悲的人生啊！

怎麼到最後都是我在孤身作戰？

難不成我命該如此嗎？

要相信和接納一個人談何容易。

倘若你們根本不想做一世的朋友，

不要浪費時間去建築浩瀚的承諾，

一開始更不該在我生命里留下軌跡，

因為你們擔當不起。

不是我幼稚，

是你們無知。

Don't say you're sorry if you don't mean it.

Don’t apologize to me if you had no idea what and where you did wrong, it’s worthless when you yourself don’t even know why you need to repent. That one word will not be adequate to compensate the loss we suffered. Maybe they forgave you, but I don’t and I never will. You can go on be a cry baby in front of me but still, it won’t change anything because I will never let you be the Queen or King of the house. And I will never like you, you thought you could conceal but I saw your true colors, way clearer than others did.

You'll be remembered.

3 tests, 2 assignments, 1 presentation, and 1 project to be done before the final.

It's so damn difficult to juggle between my study, my job and my own business.

There's hardly any free time left for myself. I don't even think I stand a chance to rest in this coming sem break. Not until next January.

Btw, I really hate my current template, it reminds me of something and someone.

Hmm.He'll not find me. I hurt him so bad. I know it's awful but it's for his own good.

I wish we're still friend but I guess he'll be hating me for his entire life if he could.

Maybe he won't even read my blog again. You people please don't come up to my ass and ask me to take the initiative to talk to him. No way. Cause he hurt me too and he knew that pretty well. But for his information (in case you're reading this), I'm mad no more.

Maybe he won't believe I'm talking bout him right now. Okay, my bad. Cause I scold him once and asked him not to be so sensitive and overreacting as he's not that important to me.

Sigh. I'm not regretful of what I've said. But it's rueful we're not friend anymore.

Seriously, I cherish each and everyone who left footprints in my life. No matter who they are. Perhaps some of you will eventually forgetting me, but you'll be remembered somewhere in my heart.