我走以后 你现在的生活 会不会也偶尔想起我 那所谓的以后还是朋友 如何去做 你曾经说我走以后 希望还有联络 能够聆听彼此的苦乐 说实在的 我已不能理智对待了 慢慢学会了沉默 想把你影子摆脱 或许就不难过 夜晚没了你在我身边拥抱着 习惯了
Thursday, September 23, 2010
我走以后
MIA
Sorry for the less update lately, have been busy preparing for exams :P
Speaking about exams, I do wish I could get a better result this time as I couldn't afford another decrement in my CGPA :c My 1st class hons cant be gone!!! xo
One more. Just one last paper and I can prolly enjoy my break :)
By the way, poppy will be MIA for a few weeks. Don't pout.
I'll be back with more updates and nice pics as soon as possible ;)
So do follow my blog yeah readers :$
Speaking about exams, I do wish I could get a better result this time as I couldn't afford another decrement in my CGPA :c My 1st class hons cant be gone!!! xo
One more. Just one last paper and I can prolly enjoy my break :)
By the way, poppy will be MIA for a few weeks. Don't pout.
I'll be back with more updates and nice pics as soon as possible ;)
So do follow my blog yeah readers :$
Thursday, September 16, 2010
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
You and Me
Just some random pictures.
B, I hope we can hold our hands together forever, like this.
Our love is still going strong ❤
B, I hope we can hold our hands together forever, like this.
Our love is still going strong ❤
Paramore Live in KL.
Catch PARAMORE LIVE in KUALA LUMPUR on this 19th October!
Oh I heart Hayley Williams...
Oh I heart Hayley Williams...
20 Things about me
20 Things about me
I know this is kinda late but what the heck. 100 is just too long for me and while I'm deprived of sleep, 20 will do. I'll write another 80 when I'm free =) Now, here you go.
I love good food and I love to cook.
The best trips of my life so far were to Australia and China.
I am considered a good listener, but I can’t help interrupting when I have an idea.
I believe nobody can match my mom’s love
I have met some famous people throughout the years, and a lot of aspiring ones.
I know a few people who love to bitch about me.
I love McDonalds french fries and think they’re the best.
My dad is a professional photographer. I am an amateur.
I believe in reincarnation.
I don’t have a favorite color. I love too many to choose.
I have naturally curly hair. But it isn’t naturally brown.
I am quite a procrastinator.
I am not competitive but I love to win.
Sometimes I miss my old job and old life.
There's a lot of thing that I don't say here in my blog.
I lived in the countryside in England for five years.
I got a car as my birthday gift last year.
I hate calculation.
Love Starbucks coffee and detest instant coffee.
I totally get Tchaikovsky, Rachmaninoff, Stravinsky, Mahler, Beethoven and Copland.
Wishlist
Since my birthday is just around the corner, I’d like to make a shout out to all my besties, friends, families and the boyfie of course about my birthday wish ^ ^* wishing is exactly what I’m going to do since I’ve drained my bank account and is uber broke now LoL. I don’t really need those things but dreaming of it does no harm right?
1) A brand new wardrobe or cosmetic essentials from my favorite brands. (Which girl doesn’t like to get dolled up and have endless garments to choose from eh?)
2) Spa treatment. I’ve been longing for some serious relaxation and pampering.
3) Anywhere out of the city (preferably overseas). I really need a vacation and get rid of the hustle.
4) iPhone 4!!! What more can I say? Everyone is using it! Okay, almost. Nope?
5) A DSLR that can fulfill all my photo-taking needs hehe. Need one that is user-friendly though.
6) Shopping, lunch and movies with my BFFs. Ain’t it lovely?
7) A romantic getaway with the boyfie =)
8) Another Coach tote from the Poppy Collection XD… Now you know why I love this name so damn much!
9) A dwarf lop bunny or djungarian hamster. They’re just way too cute to resist.
10) More and more cash! LoL. I will never tired of money.
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
About moi
Hola people!
Since I'm having some new readers around (W.E.L.C.O.M.E. =) *throws confetti* ) and I never introduce myself properly in my blog before. I believe many people are curious about how I look or who am I, so let's start knowing me! LoL
There are some reasons why I picked this name – Poppy G.
My real name is identical with one of the famous blogger we have in Malaysia, *Cough* so you peeps may need to do some guessing work. I chose to use a nickname instead of my real-world name in order to avoid from being stalked by some psychopathic prowler.
On a side note, I do really like the poppy plants *wink*. And G is actually the initial of my own middle name. So guys and girls, you can either call me Poppy or G. =D
On a side note, I do really like the poppy plants *wink*. And G is actually the initial of my own middle name. So guys and girls, you can either call me Poppy or G. =D
I started to blog since 2005 and have shifted here and there as well as changing numerous urls, the credits definitely goes to my distraught frenetic stalker. Let’s pray that I’ll get loose from those lunatics, have my great life back and remain active as Poppy. ^^
This blog normally serves as a platform for me to vent out my anger and frustration, so it tend to be very personal and might contain some vulgarities when I’m in my worst stage LoL.And sometimes I reblog things that inspire me.
Mine is not a very picturesque blog, ehem, so don’t expect to see my fugly face here because me and my friends enjoy being low profile XD. However, I do occasionally let some beautiful pictures light up my boring bloggie, but this rarely happens ahah!
Mine is not a very picturesque blog, ehem, so don’t expect to see my fugly face here because me and my friends enjoy being low profile XD. However, I do occasionally let some beautiful pictures light up my boring bloggie, but this rarely happens ahah!
I’m of mix-parentage and now in my early 20’s, currently working on my thesis, struggling hard to reach the finishing line. I live in the city and travel a lot since I was a kiddo, am totally passionately in love with fashion, music and photography. If you want to know me more, you just have to follow my blog =)
Saturday, September 11, 2010
L.O.V.E.
LOVE is a CYCLE
When you love, you get hurt.
When you get hurt, you hate.
When you hate, you try to forget.
When you try to forget, you start missing.
And when you start missing, you will eventually fall in ♥ again.
B ♥,
I am so sorry that I hurt you by taking you for granted, I promise to get better at giving you all I can. Please believe that my love for you is true and you meant the world to me.
G. ♥
When you love, you get hurt.
When you get hurt, you hate.
When you hate, you try to forget.
When you try to forget, you start missing.
And when you start missing, you will eventually fall in ♥ again.
B ♥,
I am so sorry that I hurt you by taking you for granted, I promise to get better at giving you all I can. Please believe that my love for you is true and you meant the world to me.
G. ♥
Friday, September 10, 2010
When the world turn against you.
I found this article when i'm in a depression. And it had helped me to see things from a different perspective. I'm still learning to forgive and let go though the hatred and wrath is rooting in my heart. It's hard and times heal nothing. I can only turn to Him. Thought of sharing it with my readers, hoping it will guide you in some way too.
"Get up, we must go. Here comes the man who has turned against me." (Matthew 24:46)
The words were spoken to Judas. But they could have been spoken to anyone. They could have been spoken to John, to Peter, to James. They could have been spoken to Thomas, to Andrew, to Nathanael. They could have been spoken to the Roman soldiers, to the Jewish leaders. They could have been spoken to Pilate, To Herod, to Caiaphas. They could have been spoken to every person who praised him last Sunday but abandoned him tonight.
Everyone turned against Jesus.
Though the kiss was planted by Judas, the betrayal was committed by all. Every person took a step, but no one took a stand. As Jesus left the garden he walked alone. The world had turned against him. He was betrayed.
Betray. The word is an eighth of an inch above betroth in the dictionary, but a world from betroth in life. It's a weapon found only in the hands of one you love. Your enemy has no such tool, for only a friend can betray. Betrayal is mutiny. It's a violation of a trust, an inside job.
Would that it were a stranger. Would that it were a random attack. Would that you were a victim of circumstances. But you aren't. You are a victim of a friend.
A sandpaper kiss is placed on your cheek. A promise is made with fingers crossed. You look to your friends and your friends don't look back. You look to the system for justice - the system looks to you as a scapegoat.
You are betrayed. Bitten with a snake's kiss.
It's more than rejection. Rejection opens a wound, betrayal pours the salt.
It's more than loneliness. Loneliness leaves you in the cold, betrayal closes the door.
It's more than mockery. Mockery plunges the knife, betrayal twists it.
It's more than an insult. An insult attacks your pride, betrayal breaks your heart.
Betrayal...when your world turns against you.
Betrayal...where there is opportunity for love, there is opportunity for hurt.
When betrayal comes, what do you do? Get out? Get angry? Get even? You have to deal with it some way. Let's see how Jesus dealt with it.
Begin by noticing how Jesus saw Judas. "Jesus answered, 'Friend, do what you came to do.'" (Matthew 26:50)
Of all the names I would have chosen for Judas it would not have been "friend." What Judas did to Jesus was grossly unfair. There is no indication that Jesus ever mistreated Judas. There is no clue that Judas was ever left out or neglected. When, during the Last Supper, Jesus told the disciples that his betrayer sat at the table, they didn't turn to one another and whisper, "It's Judas. Jesus told us he would do this."
They didn't whisper it because Jesus never said it. He had known it. He had known what Judas would do, but he treated the betrayer as if he were faithful.
It's even more unfair when you consider the betrayal was Judas's idea. The religious leaders didn't seek him, Judas sought them. "What will you pay me for giving Jesus to you?" he asked. (Matthew 26:15). The betrayal would have been more palatable had Judas been propositioned by the leaders, but he wasn't. He propositioned them.
And Judas's method...again, why did it have to be a kiss? (Matthew 26:48-49)
And why did he have to call him "Teacher"? (Matthew 26:49). That's a title of respect. The incongruity of his words, deeds, and actions - I wouldn't have called Judas "friend."
But that is exactly what Jesus called him. Why? Jesus could see something we can't. Let me explain.
Jesus knew Judas had been seduced by a powerful foe. He was aware of the wiles of Satan's whispers (he had just heard them himself). He knew how hard it was for Judas to do what was right.
He didn't justify what Judas did. He didn't minimize the deed. Nor did he release Judas from his choice. But he did look eye to eye with his betrayer and try to understand.
As long as you hate your enemy, a jail door is closed and a prisoner is taken. But when you try to understand and release your foe from your hatred, then the prisoner is released and that prisoner is you.
Perhaps you don't like that idea. Perhaps the thought of forgiveness is unrealistic. Perhaps the idea of trying to understand the Judases in our world is simply too gracious.
My response to you then is a question. What do you suggest? Will harboring the anger solve the problem? Will getting even remove the hurt? Does hatred do any good? Again, I'm not minimizing your hurt or justifying their actions. But I am saying that justice won't come this side of eternity. And demanding that your enemy get his or her share of pain will, in the process, be most painful to you.
May I gently but firmly remind you of something you know but may have forgotten? Life is not fair.
That's not pessimism, it's fact. That's not a complaint, it's just the way things are. I don't like it. Neither do you. We want life to be fair. Ever since the kid down the block got a bike and we didn't, we've been saying the same thing, "That's not fair."
But at some point someone needs to say to us, "Who ever told you life was going to be fair?"
God didn't. He didn't say, "If you have many kinds of troubles." He said, "When you have many kinds of troubles" (James 1:2). Troubles are part of the package. Betrayals are part of our troubles. Don't be surprised when betrayals come. Don't look for fairness here - look instead where Jesus looked.
Jesus looked to the future. read his words: "In the future you will see the Son of Man coming." While going through hell, Jesus kept his eyes on heaven. While surrounded by enemies, he kept his mind on his father. While abandoned on earth, he kept his heart on home. "In the future you will see the Son of Man sitting at the right hand of God, the Powerful One, and coming on clouds in the sky" (Matthew 26:64).
Jesus took a long look into the homeland. Long enough to count his friends. "I could ask my Father and he would give me twelve armies of angels." And seeing them up there gave him strength down here.
By the way, his friends are your friends. The Father's loyalty to Jesus is the father's loyalty to you. When you feel betrayed, remember that. When you see the torches and feel the betrayer's kiss, remember his words: "I will never leave you; I will never forget you" (Hebrews 13:5).
Think of home.
-Max Lucado; taken from "The Final Week of Jesus"
"Get up, we must go. Here comes the man who has turned against me." (Matthew 24:46)
The words were spoken to Judas. But they could have been spoken to anyone. They could have been spoken to John, to Peter, to James. They could have been spoken to Thomas, to Andrew, to Nathanael. They could have been spoken to the Roman soldiers, to the Jewish leaders. They could have been spoken to Pilate, To Herod, to Caiaphas. They could have been spoken to every person who praised him last Sunday but abandoned him tonight.
Everyone turned against Jesus.
Though the kiss was planted by Judas, the betrayal was committed by all. Every person took a step, but no one took a stand. As Jesus left the garden he walked alone. The world had turned against him. He was betrayed.
Betray. The word is an eighth of an inch above betroth in the dictionary, but a world from betroth in life. It's a weapon found only in the hands of one you love. Your enemy has no such tool, for only a friend can betray. Betrayal is mutiny. It's a violation of a trust, an inside job.
Would that it were a stranger. Would that it were a random attack. Would that you were a victim of circumstances. But you aren't. You are a victim of a friend.
A sandpaper kiss is placed on your cheek. A promise is made with fingers crossed. You look to your friends and your friends don't look back. You look to the system for justice - the system looks to you as a scapegoat.
You are betrayed. Bitten with a snake's kiss.
It's more than rejection. Rejection opens a wound, betrayal pours the salt.
It's more than loneliness. Loneliness leaves you in the cold, betrayal closes the door.
It's more than mockery. Mockery plunges the knife, betrayal twists it.
It's more than an insult. An insult attacks your pride, betrayal breaks your heart.
Betrayal...when your world turns against you.
Betrayal...where there is opportunity for love, there is opportunity for hurt.
When betrayal comes, what do you do? Get out? Get angry? Get even? You have to deal with it some way. Let's see how Jesus dealt with it.
Begin by noticing how Jesus saw Judas. "Jesus answered, 'Friend, do what you came to do.'" (Matthew 26:50)
Of all the names I would have chosen for Judas it would not have been "friend." What Judas did to Jesus was grossly unfair. There is no indication that Jesus ever mistreated Judas. There is no clue that Judas was ever left out or neglected. When, during the Last Supper, Jesus told the disciples that his betrayer sat at the table, they didn't turn to one another and whisper, "It's Judas. Jesus told us he would do this."
They didn't whisper it because Jesus never said it. He had known it. He had known what Judas would do, but he treated the betrayer as if he were faithful.
It's even more unfair when you consider the betrayal was Judas's idea. The religious leaders didn't seek him, Judas sought them. "What will you pay me for giving Jesus to you?" he asked. (Matthew 26:15). The betrayal would have been more palatable had Judas been propositioned by the leaders, but he wasn't. He propositioned them.
And Judas's method...again, why did it have to be a kiss? (Matthew 26:48-49)
And why did he have to call him "Teacher"? (Matthew 26:49). That's a title of respect. The incongruity of his words, deeds, and actions - I wouldn't have called Judas "friend."
But that is exactly what Jesus called him. Why? Jesus could see something we can't. Let me explain.
Jesus knew Judas had been seduced by a powerful foe. He was aware of the wiles of Satan's whispers (he had just heard them himself). He knew how hard it was for Judas to do what was right.
He didn't justify what Judas did. He didn't minimize the deed. Nor did he release Judas from his choice. But he did look eye to eye with his betrayer and try to understand.
As long as you hate your enemy, a jail door is closed and a prisoner is taken. But when you try to understand and release your foe from your hatred, then the prisoner is released and that prisoner is you.
Perhaps you don't like that idea. Perhaps the thought of forgiveness is unrealistic. Perhaps the idea of trying to understand the Judases in our world is simply too gracious.
My response to you then is a question. What do you suggest? Will harboring the anger solve the problem? Will getting even remove the hurt? Does hatred do any good? Again, I'm not minimizing your hurt or justifying their actions. But I am saying that justice won't come this side of eternity. And demanding that your enemy get his or her share of pain will, in the process, be most painful to you.
May I gently but firmly remind you of something you know but may have forgotten? Life is not fair.
That's not pessimism, it's fact. That's not a complaint, it's just the way things are. I don't like it. Neither do you. We want life to be fair. Ever since the kid down the block got a bike and we didn't, we've been saying the same thing, "That's not fair."
But at some point someone needs to say to us, "Who ever told you life was going to be fair?"
God didn't. He didn't say, "If you have many kinds of troubles." He said, "When you have many kinds of troubles" (James 1:2). Troubles are part of the package. Betrayals are part of our troubles. Don't be surprised when betrayals come. Don't look for fairness here - look instead where Jesus looked.
Jesus looked to the future. read his words: "In the future you will see the Son of Man coming." While going through hell, Jesus kept his eyes on heaven. While surrounded by enemies, he kept his mind on his father. While abandoned on earth, he kept his heart on home. "In the future you will see the Son of Man sitting at the right hand of God, the Powerful One, and coming on clouds in the sky" (Matthew 26:64).
Jesus took a long look into the homeland. Long enough to count his friends. "I could ask my Father and he would give me twelve armies of angels." And seeing them up there gave him strength down here.
By the way, his friends are your friends. The Father's loyalty to Jesus is the father's loyalty to you. When you feel betrayed, remember that. When you see the torches and feel the betrayer's kiss, remember his words: "I will never leave you; I will never forget you" (Hebrews 13:5).
Think of home.
-Max Lucado; taken from "The Final Week of Jesus"
The winner takes it all.
I am now officially living by the 88-10-2 rule...
88% of the things you worry about will never even occur.
10% of the things you worry about won't really affect you.
2% of the things you SHOULD worry about should get 100% of your attention.
...the rest, I shake off like a bad case of fleas.
Oh yea, optimism is my new best friend.
Okay, at least im making an effort to love her. *^^v
Poppy: This is not an end. It's just the beginning.
88% of the things you worry about will never even occur.
10% of the things you worry about won't really affect you.
2% of the things you SHOULD worry about should get 100% of your attention.
...the rest, I shake off like a bad case of fleas.
Oh yea, optimism is my new best friend.
Okay, at least im making an effort to love her. *^^v
Poppy: This is not an end. It's just the beginning.
Thursday, September 9, 2010
Let's get lost.
I've been sitting here for a couple of hours now and my mind is blank.
I can't get this feeling out of my head.
I can't even describe how I feel.
This feeling doesn't make sense to me.
Why do we feel empty inside?
Is it the process or Is it a test?
I don't want anymore test.
Sometimes I just wish I could feel nothing as much as I wish I could feel you.
During the sleepless night,I used to just lay there in my bed and try to find a reason.
A reason to stay...
A reason to leave...
A reason to give up...
A reason to believe...
A reason to remember...
A reason to forget...
A reason to love...
A reason to hate...
A reason just about everything.
I wonder where did I go wrong? What's wrong with me?
I got tired of finding a reason so I stopped.
Sometimes all you need is just to stop for a minute.
More stupid questions will only lead to more stupid answers.
Not everything happen for a reason.
Flashback memories might kill,
but they come and go as well as feelings.
Nothing is simple in life,
Why make them more complicated anyway?
This I told myself.
I can't get this feeling out of my head.
I can't even describe how I feel.
This feeling doesn't make sense to me.
Why do we feel empty inside?
Is it the process or Is it a test?
I don't want anymore test.
Sometimes I just wish I could feel nothing as much as I wish I could feel you.
During the sleepless night,I used to just lay there in my bed and try to find a reason.
A reason to stay...
A reason to leave...
A reason to give up...
A reason to believe...
A reason to remember...
A reason to forget...
A reason to love...
A reason to hate...
A reason just about everything.
I wonder where did I go wrong? What's wrong with me?
I got tired of finding a reason so I stopped.
Sometimes all you need is just to stop for a minute.
More stupid questions will only lead to more stupid answers.
Not everything happen for a reason.
Flashback memories might kill,
but they come and go as well as feelings.
Nothing is simple in life,
Why make them more complicated anyway?
This I told myself.
Monday, August 23, 2010
I need some positive thinking ):
Everyday… I wake up and think, not again…don’t be sad…
I always wonder…why I can’t stop this feeling. I think it’s a part of me.
There is always a moment when I’m happy, but I always end up getting depressed.
I’m not that bad though. I mean…
Even if I’m dressed with all these depressing stuff around me. I still am thankful…
For everything that once happened to my life.
I’m traveling…because life is a journey…a messy one of course…
And I’m trying…to live and learn…and to enjoy this freaking life.
Saturday, August 14, 2010
你不知道的事
力宏的歌总能轻易的引起共鸣，牵起我心中朵朵的涟漪。
首首歌词和旋律是那么的简单却唯美动人。。。
我几时才能向他看齐呢？
期待《恋爱通告》~
你不知道为什么我狠下心
盘旋在你看不见那高空里
多的是 你不知道的事
Monday, August 9, 2010
If you can blog about her I can blog about you.
I'm starting to think maybe I'm an alien abducted by human. Sigh. It's either I understand them too well or I don't at all. According to my parents, life used to be so simple some decades ago. Seriously, mom? dad? Is that why you don't let me have my car back? To keep me simple and pure? Don't be stubborn. It's a competitive world. You fight to survive. And people choose pals by their status. So yea, gimme back my car, my keys and my license please. I'll buy you a bigger one next time =)
Don't lie if you're not a great liar. You can't get through me sweetie.
I’m terrified now. I have no idea whom to trust. Why are we Homo Sapiens can be like that? I thought we’re civilized. Where have all the honest people gone? Are they all dead? If I can be honest with you, why can’t you do the same? Am I really that threatening? So you said you don’t have a blog but you asked for mine and I told you. I let you access any pieces of information about me without doubt yet this is how I get treated from you. Do you really think that I’m so stupid that I will never found your blog? Don’t tell me you don’t blog in a blog and that blog is not a blog! I’m such a fool, believing the wrong people again and again. Thanks to you, I’m considering changing my url once again!
Lesson Learned.
A least I learned something today.
Never allow someone to be your priority while letting yourself to be their option.
PS：是不是要等到我銷聲匿跡了，
你們才懂得關心我？
Never allow someone to be your priority while letting yourself to be their option.
PS：是不是要等到我銷聲匿跡了，
你們才懂得關心我？
对话
爲什麽我像是和世界脫了節。
最近的我到底是怎麼了？
人家的改變是美好的，
我卻是相反的。
不管我如何努力的往上爬，
人家在山頂了，
我依然還在谷底。
心中有太多問號，
卻沒人可以給我確實的答案。
要你誠懇真的有那麼難嗎？
還是你们知道是你们的錯，
所以有口難言？
陳幾何時我們變這樣了？
突然的冷漠很惘然。
我不曉得是我變了還是你們變了，
大家都長大了，
所以更懂得猜心是吧？
是我太軟弱了嗎?
也許是的，
所以只有像我這樣的人才會為你們難過。
可悲的人生啊！
怎麼到最後都是我在孤身作戰？
難不成我命該如此嗎？
要相信和接納一個人談何容易。
倘若你們根本不想做一世的朋友，
不要浪費時間去建築浩瀚的承諾，
一開始更不該在我生命里留下軌跡，
因為你們擔當不起。
不是我幼稚，
是你們無知。
Friday, August 6, 2010
Don't say you're sorry if you don't mean it.
Don’t apologize to me if you had no idea what and where you did wrong, it’s worthless when you yourself don’t even know why you need to repent. That one word will not be adequate to compensate the loss we suffered. Maybe they forgave you, but I don’t and I never will. You can go on be a cry baby in front of me but still, it won’t change anything because I will never let you be the Queen or King of the house. And I will never like you, you thought you could conceal but I saw your true colors, way clearer than others did.
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
You'll be remembered.
3 tests, 2 assignments, 1 presentation, and 1 project to be done before the final.
It's so damn difficult to juggle between my study, my job and my own business.
There's hardly any free time left for myself. I don't even think I stand a chance to rest in this coming sem break. Not until next January.
Btw, I really hate my current template, it reminds me of something and someone.
Hmm.He'll not find me. I hurt him so bad. I know it's awful but it's for his own good.
I wish we're still friend but I guess he'll be hating me for his entire life if he could.
Maybe he won't even read my blog again. You people please don't come up to my ass and ask me to take the initiative to talk to him. No way. Cause he hurt me too and he knew that pretty well. But for his information (in case you're reading this), I'm mad no more.
Maybe he won't believe I'm talking bout him right now. Okay, my bad. Cause I scold him once and asked him not to be so sensitive and overreacting as he's not that important to me.
Sigh. I'm not regretful of what I've said. But it's rueful we're not friend anymore.
Seriously, I cherish each and everyone who left footprints in my life. No matter who they are. Perhaps some of you will eventually forgetting me, but you'll be remembered somewhere in my heart.
S, IMY.
Something happened last nite. My sleep was so dreadful. I kept dreaming of her.
S, please don't do that to me again, my heart shattered because of your action.
I'm glad to have took the initiative to talk about the issue with you this morning.
I miss the good old days, when we're still young; and the place we used to hang around, where we always share our tranquil moments together and talk about the future, our passion and philosophies of life.
How long have it been since we last talk to each other,Just the two of us?
You taught me a lot of things in the past, you shared your dreams with me and were always there to encouraged me whenever I stumble in life.
There's no words that can possibly describe how I feel towards you. You're my guidance, you're my teacher, you're my role model, you're my senior, you're my friend. You're the special one.
It doesn't mean that I don't give a damn if I'm not there when you need me. I do care, but in a different way. It's awkward for me to approach you just like that after what had happened. And you already have that special someone taken care of your everything. I just feel like it's futile for me to worry so much. All of that sudden, I thought I am a surplus. You had no idea how I feel.
But I'm happy it's all over now. It turned out that we had misunderstood each other. And I really appreciate your words. It helps a lot to a certain extent. You made me realized what friends are for. I hope there're still plenty of chances to talk to you, like this, again. I MISS YOU.
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
living in the radio,lost in the stereo's sound.
I'm gonna change my template once I'm free to do it.
ooh, and yeah im running my own business now.
One last thing to be done and I'm all set to announce it.
I knew I've been putting it aside for quite some time due to some unfavorable circumstances.
But now everything seems to be going back on the right track except for the fact that I'm still not okay with my life.
ARGH...I guess I'll be alright again before you even realized something's wrong with me.duh.
Gimme a break. I need some air to breathe.
Buddha said Being successful cannot bring you happiness cause happiness is the key to success.If you're happy with what you do,you'll be successful.
Now my life is screwed, I'm not happy at all in the things I do.
I don't have a passion for business.
I don't like to read thousand of pages of a fucking damn textbook which the content will eventually became a history once I step my feet out of the varsity.
I don't like to search for journals or articles by sacrificing the whole night and skimming what can be implemented in my bloody assignments.
I don't like the hectic life I'm going through now.
I don't like the fact that I'm actually struggling to even breathe...
Gimme any good reasons that I should be happy!
If you're telling me that I should be grateful for what I have, that I can breathe and talk and walk and eat,SCRAP THAT!!!
Sunday, July 18, 2010
Thursday, July 1, 2010
A few words for myself
At least it's the first day of the rest of my life
I can't be afraid
Cause it's my turn to be brave
And I might still cry
And I might still bleed
These thorns in my side
This heart on my sleeve
And lightening may strike
This ground at my feet
And I might still crash
But I still believe
This is the moment I stand here all alone
With everything I have inside, everything I own
I can't be afraid
Cause it's my turn to be brave
And I might still cry
And I might still bleed
These thorns in my side
This heart on my sleeve
And lightening may strike
This ground at my feet
And I might still crash
But I still believe
This is the moment I stand here all alone
With everything I have inside, everything I own
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
That girl was me
There was a girl I knew who always wanted to be the one to stand out from the crowd
Always believed that she was gonna live her dreams
That what went down was gonna come around
For all the doubters, non-believers, the cynicals that once were dreamers
One of these days you'll open up your eyes
And you'll realize
That girl was a one time teenage drama queen
A hot, tough everyday wannabe
But she'll have changed her destiny
Now she's a somebody
That girl was a wild child dreamer but she found herself
'Cause she believes in nothin' else
And you'll look back and you won't believe
That girl was me
Armed with an attitude that she knows how to use
She's gonna get there any way she can
Now she knows what she wants
No one is gonna stop her
Nothing's ever gonna hold her down
For all the doubters, non-believers the cynicle that once were dreamers
One of these days you'll know that you were wrong (who would've know)
Life is a work of art- you gotta paint it colorful
Can make it anything you want
Don't have to stick to any rules
You don't need a high IQ to succeed in what you do
You just gotta have no doubt just believe in yourself
Always believed that she was gonna live her dreams
That what went down was gonna come around
For all the doubters, non-believers, the cynicals that once were dreamers
One of these days you'll open up your eyes
And you'll realize
That girl was a one time teenage drama queen
A hot, tough everyday wannabe
But she'll have changed her destiny
Now she's a somebody
That girl was a wild child dreamer but she found herself
'Cause she believes in nothin' else
And you'll look back and you won't believe
That girl was me
Armed with an attitude that she knows how to use
She's gonna get there any way she can
Now she knows what she wants
No one is gonna stop her
Nothing's ever gonna hold her down
For all the doubters, non-believers the cynicle that once were dreamers
One of these days you'll know that you were wrong (who would've know)
Life is a work of art- you gotta paint it colorful
Can make it anything you want
Don't have to stick to any rules
You don't need a high IQ to succeed in what you do
You just gotta have no doubt just believe in yourself
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Temporary Insanity
We're nothing in this universe.nothing.
I think I'm losing my mind.
I feel chained down.
I can't run. I can't shout.
Sometimes I feel cryptic reading what I wrote before.
It seems that my heart is falling apart from my mind.
Can someone please take away this pain?
Just gimme something to get rid of this feeling.
It hurts to hold back and watching the frustrations grow.
I'm all mixed up, confused.
I had no idea what to do.
It's like I've signed for a game where everyone knows my name.
I'm drowning in my emotions, My happiness fell off the track.
I hate Cinderella and all fairy tales now.
There'll never be a happy ending for everyone.
At the end we still die.
It's just so hard to stay strong when nothing is right and everything is wrong.
And the problem with strong people is that no one ever knows when they need help.
When the curtain falls she drops her fake smile and lets the tears escape.
That's it. Ain't this pathetic?
ps: please tell me you'll love me like a star...
Monday, June 28, 2010
Shadow
I was six years old
When my parents ran away
I was stuck inside a broken life
I couldn't wish away
She was beautiful
She had everything and more
And my escape was hiding out and running for the door
Somebody listen please
It used to be so hard being me
Living in the shadow
Of someone else's dream
Trying to find a hand to hold but every touch felt cold to me
Living in a nightmare
A never-ending sleep
But now that I am wide awake
My chains are finally free
Don't feel sorry for me
When my parents ran away
I was stuck inside a broken life
I couldn't wish away
She was beautiful
She had everything and more
And my escape was hiding out and running for the door
Somebody listen please
It used to be so hard being me
Living in the shadow
Of someone else's dream
Trying to find a hand to hold but every touch felt cold to me
Living in a nightmare
A never-ending sleep
But now that I am wide awake
My chains are finally free
Don't feel sorry for me
Meredith's and mine
At some point,you've to make a decision. Boundaries don't keep other people out. They fence you in. Life is so messy. That's how we're made. So, you can waste your lives drawing lines. Or you can live your life crossing them. But there're some lines that are way too dangerous to cross.
Sunday, June 27, 2010
I love Alexz =]
It's week 5 next week, my fyp is already making me getting more and more aspirin...thanks to my grumpy and fussy supervisor...argh! I really need to scream my lungs out in front of the sea...hmm,any recommendations for a nice beach destination?
I know I've been MIA for awhile...bahaha,maybe I'll disappear some times after this, maybe for an even longer period...rofl XD (had no idea why I can still laugh when I'm dealing with shits lately,maybe I just need to "flush" it after all like what ryn said) ^^
Seriously I need some sparks in my life, so yea, Poppy is making a huge come back on Stage 'cause she took a moment today to notice all the little things in her life and realized it was a beautiful sight =]
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I tried to change
I tried everything
Like headlights in the rain
Drifting back again
Somewhere out there
Gathered in the dust
Sometimes I can't remember that was us
There was a time for reason
A place for every season
Times I couldn't run away
From you
I can't believe it's morning
I can't believe it's pouring
Should I leave you here
And run away
I want to change
I'll try anything
I wanted you so bad
It nearly drove me mad
Somewhere out there
Gathered in the dust
Sometimes I can't remember that was us
Better now than never
Better late than forever
I never meant to waste your time
It doesn't seem to matter
Maybe nothing really matters
Long enough to break it all away
Somewhere out there
Gathered in the dust
Sometimes I can't remember
Sometimes I can't remember
That was us
I tried everything
Like headlights in the rain
Drifting back again
Somewhere out there
Gathered in the dust
Sometimes I can't remember that was us
There was a time for reason
A place for every season
Times I couldn't run away
From you
I can't believe it's morning
I can't believe it's pouring
Should I leave you here
And run away
I want to change
I'll try anything
I wanted you so bad
It nearly drove me mad
Somewhere out there
Gathered in the dust
Sometimes I can't remember that was us
Better now than never
Better late than forever
I never meant to waste your time
It doesn't seem to matter
Maybe nothing really matters
Long enough to break it all away
Somewhere out there
Gathered in the dust
Sometimes I can't remember
Sometimes I can't remember
That was us
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Okay,I gonna confess I love AJ till death...
Each and every song of her stole my heart completely *hearts*
She's just so frigging incredible and I hate the fact that Instant Star has ended... =(((
It'd be so damn perfect and interesting to have her in Glee...
(Okok, I aint goin to burst into tears...)
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