我走以后 你现在的生活 会不会也偶尔想起我 那所谓的以后还是朋友 如何去做 你曾经说我走以后 希望还有联络 能够聆听彼此的苦乐 说实在的 我已不能理智对待了 慢慢学会了沉默 想把你影子摆脱 或许就不难过 夜晚没了你在我身边拥抱着 习惯了
Thursday, September 23, 2010
我走以后
MIA
Sorry for the less update lately, have been busy preparing for exams :P
Speaking about exams, I do wish I could get a better result this time as I couldn't afford another decrement in my CGPA :c My 1st class hons cant be gone!!! xo
One more. Just one last paper and I can prolly enjoy my break :)
By the way, poppy will be MIA for a few weeks. Don't pout.
I'll be back with more updates and nice pics as soon as possible ;)
So do follow my blog yeah readers :$
Speaking about exams, I do wish I could get a better result this time as I couldn't afford another decrement in my CGPA :c My 1st class hons cant be gone!!! xo
One more. Just one last paper and I can prolly enjoy my break :)
By the way, poppy will be MIA for a few weeks. Don't pout.
I'll be back with more updates and nice pics as soon as possible ;)
So do follow my blog yeah readers :$
Thursday, September 16, 2010
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
You and Me
Just some random pictures.
B, I hope we can hold our hands together forever, like this.
Our love is still going strong ❤
B, I hope we can hold our hands together forever, like this.
Our love is still going strong ❤
Paramore Live in KL.
Catch PARAMORE LIVE in KUALA LUMPUR on this 19th October!
Oh I heart Hayley Williams...
Oh I heart Hayley Williams...
20 Things about me
20 Things about me
I know this is kinda late but what the heck. 100 is just too long for me and while I'm deprived of sleep, 20 will do. I'll write another 80 when I'm free =) Now, here you go.
I love good food and I love to cook.
The best trips of my life so far were to Australia and China.
I am considered a good listener, but I can’t help interrupting when I have an idea.
I believe nobody can match my mom’s love
I have met some famous people throughout the years, and a lot of aspiring ones.
I know a few people who love to bitch about me.
I love McDonalds french fries and think they’re the best.
My dad is a professional photographer. I am an amateur.
I believe in reincarnation.
I don’t have a favorite color. I love too many to choose.
I have naturally curly hair. But it isn’t naturally brown.
I am quite a procrastinator.
I am not competitive but I love to win.
Sometimes I miss my old job and old life.
There's a lot of thing that I don't say here in my blog.
I lived in the countryside in England for five years.
I got a car as my birthday gift last year.
I hate calculation.
Love Starbucks coffee and detest instant coffee.
I totally get Tchaikovsky, Rachmaninoff, Stravinsky, Mahler, Beethoven and Copland.
Wishlist
Since my birthday is just around the corner, I’d like to make a shout out to all my besties, friends, families and the boyfie of course about my birthday wish ^ ^* wishing is exactly what I’m going to do since I’ve drained my bank account and is uber broke now LoL. I don’t really need those things but dreaming of it does no harm right?
1) A brand new wardrobe or cosmetic essentials from my favorite brands. (Which girl doesn’t like to get dolled up and have endless garments to choose from eh?)
2) Spa treatment. I’ve been longing for some serious relaxation and pampering.
3) Anywhere out of the city (preferably overseas). I really need a vacation and get rid of the hustle.
4) iPhone 4!!! What more can I say? Everyone is using it! Okay, almost. Nope?
5) A DSLR that can fulfill all my photo-taking needs hehe. Need one that is user-friendly though.
6) Shopping, lunch and movies with my BFFs. Ain’t it lovely?
7) A romantic getaway with the boyfie =)
8) Another Coach tote from the Poppy Collection XD… Now you know why I love this name so damn much!
9) A dwarf lop bunny or djungarian hamster. They’re just way too cute to resist.
10) More and more cash! LoL. I will never tired of money.
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
About moi
Hola people!
Since I'm having some new readers around (W.E.L.C.O.M.E. =) *throws confetti* ) and I never introduce myself properly in my blog before. I believe many people are curious about how I look or who am I, so let's start knowing me! LoL
There are some reasons why I picked this name – Poppy G.
My real name is identical with one of the famous blogger we have in Malaysia, *Cough* so you peeps may need to do some guessing work. I chose to use a nickname instead of my real-world name in order to avoid from being stalked by some psychopathic prowler.
On a side note, I do really like the poppy plants *wink*. And G is actually the initial of my own middle name. So guys and girls, you can either call me Poppy or G. =D
On a side note, I do really like the poppy plants *wink*. And G is actually the initial of my own middle name. So guys and girls, you can either call me Poppy or G. =D
I started to blog since 2005 and have shifted here and there as well as changing numerous urls, the credits definitely goes to my distraught frenetic stalker. Let’s pray that I’ll get loose from those lunatics, have my great life back and remain active as Poppy. ^^
This blog normally serves as a platform for me to vent out my anger and frustration, so it tend to be very personal and might contain some vulgarities when I’m in my worst stage LoL.And sometimes I reblog things that inspire me.
Mine is not a very picturesque blog, ehem, so don’t expect to see my fugly face here because me and my friends enjoy being low profile XD. However, I do occasionally let some beautiful pictures light up my boring bloggie, but this rarely happens ahah!
Mine is not a very picturesque blog, ehem, so don’t expect to see my fugly face here because me and my friends enjoy being low profile XD. However, I do occasionally let some beautiful pictures light up my boring bloggie, but this rarely happens ahah!
I’m of mix-parentage and now in my early 20’s, currently working on my thesis, struggling hard to reach the finishing line. I live in the city and travel a lot since I was a kiddo, am totally passionately in love with fashion, music and photography. If you want to know me more, you just have to follow my blog =)
Saturday, September 11, 2010
L.O.V.E.
LOVE is a CYCLE
When you love, you get hurt.
When you get hurt, you hate.
When you hate, you try to forget.
When you try to forget, you start missing.
And when you start missing, you will eventually fall in ♥ again.
B ♥,
I am so sorry that I hurt you by taking you for granted, I promise to get better at giving you all I can. Please believe that my love for you is true and you meant the world to me.
G. ♥
When you love, you get hurt.
When you get hurt, you hate.
When you hate, you try to forget.
When you try to forget, you start missing.
And when you start missing, you will eventually fall in ♥ again.
B ♥,
I am so sorry that I hurt you by taking you for granted, I promise to get better at giving you all I can. Please believe that my love for you is true and you meant the world to me.
G. ♥
Friday, September 10, 2010
When the world turn against you.
I found this article when i'm in a depression. And it had helped me to see things from a different perspective. I'm still learning to forgive and let go though the hatred and wrath is rooting in my heart. It's hard and times heal nothing. I can only turn to Him. Thought of sharing it with my readers, hoping it will guide you in some way too.
"Get up, we must go. Here comes the man who has turned against me." (Matthew 24:46)
The words were spoken to Judas. But they could have been spoken to anyone. They could have been spoken to John, to Peter, to James. They could have been spoken to Thomas, to Andrew, to Nathanael. They could have been spoken to the Roman soldiers, to the Jewish leaders. They could have been spoken to Pilate, To Herod, to Caiaphas. They could have been spoken to every person who praised him last Sunday but abandoned him tonight.
Everyone turned against Jesus.
Though the kiss was planted by Judas, the betrayal was committed by all. Every person took a step, but no one took a stand. As Jesus left the garden he walked alone. The world had turned against him. He was betrayed.
Betray. The word is an eighth of an inch above betroth in the dictionary, but a world from betroth in life. It's a weapon found only in the hands of one you love. Your enemy has no such tool, for only a friend can betray. Betrayal is mutiny. It's a violation of a trust, an inside job.
Would that it were a stranger. Would that it were a random attack. Would that you were a victim of circumstances. But you aren't. You are a victim of a friend.
A sandpaper kiss is placed on your cheek. A promise is made with fingers crossed. You look to your friends and your friends don't look back. You look to the system for justice - the system looks to you as a scapegoat.
You are betrayed. Bitten with a snake's kiss.
It's more than rejection. Rejection opens a wound, betrayal pours the salt.
It's more than loneliness. Loneliness leaves you in the cold, betrayal closes the door.
It's more than mockery. Mockery plunges the knife, betrayal twists it.
It's more than an insult. An insult attacks your pride, betrayal breaks your heart.
Betrayal...when your world turns against you.
Betrayal...where there is opportunity for love, there is opportunity for hurt.
When betrayal comes, what do you do? Get out? Get angry? Get even? You have to deal with it some way. Let's see how Jesus dealt with it.
Begin by noticing how Jesus saw Judas. "Jesus answered, 'Friend, do what you came to do.'" (Matthew 26:50)
Of all the names I would have chosen for Judas it would not have been "friend." What Judas did to Jesus was grossly unfair. There is no indication that Jesus ever mistreated Judas. There is no clue that Judas was ever left out or neglected. When, during the Last Supper, Jesus told the disciples that his betrayer sat at the table, they didn't turn to one another and whisper, "It's Judas. Jesus told us he would do this."
They didn't whisper it because Jesus never said it. He had known it. He had known what Judas would do, but he treated the betrayer as if he were faithful.
It's even more unfair when you consider the betrayal was Judas's idea. The religious leaders didn't seek him, Judas sought them. "What will you pay me for giving Jesus to you?" he asked. (Matthew 26:15). The betrayal would have been more palatable had Judas been propositioned by the leaders, but he wasn't. He propositioned them.
And Judas's method...again, why did it have to be a kiss? (Matthew 26:48-49)
And why did he have to call him "Teacher"? (Matthew 26:49). That's a title of respect. The incongruity of his words, deeds, and actions - I wouldn't have called Judas "friend."
But that is exactly what Jesus called him. Why? Jesus could see something we can't. Let me explain.
Jesus knew Judas had been seduced by a powerful foe. He was aware of the wiles of Satan's whispers (he had just heard them himself). He knew how hard it was for Judas to do what was right.
He didn't justify what Judas did. He didn't minimize the deed. Nor did he release Judas from his choice. But he did look eye to eye with his betrayer and try to understand.
As long as you hate your enemy, a jail door is closed and a prisoner is taken. But when you try to understand and release your foe from your hatred, then the prisoner is released and that prisoner is you.
Perhaps you don't like that idea. Perhaps the thought of forgiveness is unrealistic. Perhaps the idea of trying to understand the Judases in our world is simply too gracious.
My response to you then is a question. What do you suggest? Will harboring the anger solve the problem? Will getting even remove the hurt? Does hatred do any good? Again, I'm not minimizing your hurt or justifying their actions. But I am saying that justice won't come this side of eternity. And demanding that your enemy get his or her share of pain will, in the process, be most painful to you.
May I gently but firmly remind you of something you know but may have forgotten? Life is not fair.
That's not pessimism, it's fact. That's not a complaint, it's just the way things are. I don't like it. Neither do you. We want life to be fair. Ever since the kid down the block got a bike and we didn't, we've been saying the same thing, "That's not fair."
But at some point someone needs to say to us, "Who ever told you life was going to be fair?"
God didn't. He didn't say, "If you have many kinds of troubles." He said, "When you have many kinds of troubles" (James 1:2). Troubles are part of the package. Betrayals are part of our troubles. Don't be surprised when betrayals come. Don't look for fairness here - look instead where Jesus looked.
Jesus looked to the future. read his words: "In the future you will see the Son of Man coming." While going through hell, Jesus kept his eyes on heaven. While surrounded by enemies, he kept his mind on his father. While abandoned on earth, he kept his heart on home. "In the future you will see the Son of Man sitting at the right hand of God, the Powerful One, and coming on clouds in the sky" (Matthew 26:64).
Jesus took a long look into the homeland. Long enough to count his friends. "I could ask my Father and he would give me twelve armies of angels." And seeing them up there gave him strength down here.
By the way, his friends are your friends. The Father's loyalty to Jesus is the father's loyalty to you. When you feel betrayed, remember that. When you see the torches and feel the betrayer's kiss, remember his words: "I will never leave you; I will never forget you" (Hebrews 13:5).
Think of home.
-Max Lucado; taken from "The Final Week of Jesus"
"Get up, we must go. Here comes the man who has turned against me." (Matthew 24:46)
The words were spoken to Judas. But they could have been spoken to anyone. They could have been spoken to John, to Peter, to James. They could have been spoken to Thomas, to Andrew, to Nathanael. They could have been spoken to the Roman soldiers, to the Jewish leaders. They could have been spoken to Pilate, To Herod, to Caiaphas. They could have been spoken to every person who praised him last Sunday but abandoned him tonight.
Everyone turned against Jesus.
Though the kiss was planted by Judas, the betrayal was committed by all. Every person took a step, but no one took a stand. As Jesus left the garden he walked alone. The world had turned against him. He was betrayed.
Betray. The word is an eighth of an inch above betroth in the dictionary, but a world from betroth in life. It's a weapon found only in the hands of one you love. Your enemy has no such tool, for only a friend can betray. Betrayal is mutiny. It's a violation of a trust, an inside job.
Would that it were a stranger. Would that it were a random attack. Would that you were a victim of circumstances. But you aren't. You are a victim of a friend.
A sandpaper kiss is placed on your cheek. A promise is made with fingers crossed. You look to your friends and your friends don't look back. You look to the system for justice - the system looks to you as a scapegoat.
You are betrayed. Bitten with a snake's kiss.
It's more than rejection. Rejection opens a wound, betrayal pours the salt.
It's more than loneliness. Loneliness leaves you in the cold, betrayal closes the door.
It's more than mockery. Mockery plunges the knife, betrayal twists it.
It's more than an insult. An insult attacks your pride, betrayal breaks your heart.
Betrayal...when your world turns against you.
Betrayal...where there is opportunity for love, there is opportunity for hurt.
When betrayal comes, what do you do? Get out? Get angry? Get even? You have to deal with it some way. Let's see how Jesus dealt with it.
Begin by noticing how Jesus saw Judas. "Jesus answered, 'Friend, do what you came to do.'" (Matthew 26:50)
Of all the names I would have chosen for Judas it would not have been "friend." What Judas did to Jesus was grossly unfair. There is no indication that Jesus ever mistreated Judas. There is no clue that Judas was ever left out or neglected. When, during the Last Supper, Jesus told the disciples that his betrayer sat at the table, they didn't turn to one another and whisper, "It's Judas. Jesus told us he would do this."
They didn't whisper it because Jesus never said it. He had known it. He had known what Judas would do, but he treated the betrayer as if he were faithful.
It's even more unfair when you consider the betrayal was Judas's idea. The religious leaders didn't seek him, Judas sought them. "What will you pay me for giving Jesus to you?" he asked. (Matthew 26:15). The betrayal would have been more palatable had Judas been propositioned by the leaders, but he wasn't. He propositioned them.
And Judas's method...again, why did it have to be a kiss? (Matthew 26:48-49)
And why did he have to call him "Teacher"? (Matthew 26:49). That's a title of respect. The incongruity of his words, deeds, and actions - I wouldn't have called Judas "friend."
But that is exactly what Jesus called him. Why? Jesus could see something we can't. Let me explain.
Jesus knew Judas had been seduced by a powerful foe. He was aware of the wiles of Satan's whispers (he had just heard them himself). He knew how hard it was for Judas to do what was right.
He didn't justify what Judas did. He didn't minimize the deed. Nor did he release Judas from his choice. But he did look eye to eye with his betrayer and try to understand.
As long as you hate your enemy, a jail door is closed and a prisoner is taken. But when you try to understand and release your foe from your hatred, then the prisoner is released and that prisoner is you.
Perhaps you don't like that idea. Perhaps the thought of forgiveness is unrealistic. Perhaps the idea of trying to understand the Judases in our world is simply too gracious.
My response to you then is a question. What do you suggest? Will harboring the anger solve the problem? Will getting even remove the hurt? Does hatred do any good? Again, I'm not minimizing your hurt or justifying their actions. But I am saying that justice won't come this side of eternity. And demanding that your enemy get his or her share of pain will, in the process, be most painful to you.
May I gently but firmly remind you of something you know but may have forgotten? Life is not fair.
That's not pessimism, it's fact. That's not a complaint, it's just the way things are. I don't like it. Neither do you. We want life to be fair. Ever since the kid down the block got a bike and we didn't, we've been saying the same thing, "That's not fair."
But at some point someone needs to say to us, "Who ever told you life was going to be fair?"
God didn't. He didn't say, "If you have many kinds of troubles." He said, "When you have many kinds of troubles" (James 1:2). Troubles are part of the package. Betrayals are part of our troubles. Don't be surprised when betrayals come. Don't look for fairness here - look instead where Jesus looked.
Jesus looked to the future. read his words: "In the future you will see the Son of Man coming." While going through hell, Jesus kept his eyes on heaven. While surrounded by enemies, he kept his mind on his father. While abandoned on earth, he kept his heart on home. "In the future you will see the Son of Man sitting at the right hand of God, the Powerful One, and coming on clouds in the sky" (Matthew 26:64).
Jesus took a long look into the homeland. Long enough to count his friends. "I could ask my Father and he would give me twelve armies of angels." And seeing them up there gave him strength down here.
By the way, his friends are your friends. The Father's loyalty to Jesus is the father's loyalty to you. When you feel betrayed, remember that. When you see the torches and feel the betrayer's kiss, remember his words: "I will never leave you; I will never forget you" (Hebrews 13:5).
Think of home.
-Max Lucado; taken from "The Final Week of Jesus"
The winner takes it all.
I am now officially living by the 88-10-2 rule...
88% of the things you worry about will never even occur.
10% of the things you worry about won't really affect you.
2% of the things you SHOULD worry about should get 100% of your attention.
...the rest, I shake off like a bad case of fleas.
Oh yea, optimism is my new best friend.
Okay, at least im making an effort to love her. *^^v
Poppy: This is not an end. It's just the beginning.
88% of the things you worry about will never even occur.
10% of the things you worry about won't really affect you.
2% of the things you SHOULD worry about should get 100% of your attention.
...the rest, I shake off like a bad case of fleas.
Oh yea, optimism is my new best friend.
Okay, at least im making an effort to love her. *^^v
Poppy: This is not an end. It's just the beginning.
Thursday, September 9, 2010
Let's get lost.
I've been sitting here for a couple of hours now and my mind is blank.
I can't get this feeling out of my head.
I can't even describe how I feel.
This feeling doesn't make sense to me.
Why do we feel empty inside?
Is it the process or Is it a test?
I don't want anymore test.
Sometimes I just wish I could feel nothing as much as I wish I could feel you.
During the sleepless night,I used to just lay there in my bed and try to find a reason.
A reason to stay...
A reason to leave...
A reason to give up...
A reason to believe...
A reason to remember...
A reason to forget...
A reason to love...
A reason to hate...
A reason just about everything.
I wonder where did I go wrong? What's wrong with me?
I got tired of finding a reason so I stopped.
Sometimes all you need is just to stop for a minute.
More stupid questions will only lead to more stupid answers.
Not everything happen for a reason.
Flashback memories might kill,
but they come and go as well as feelings.
Nothing is simple in life,
Why make them more complicated anyway?
This I told myself.
I can't get this feeling out of my head.
I can't even describe how I feel.
This feeling doesn't make sense to me.
Why do we feel empty inside?
Is it the process or Is it a test?
I don't want anymore test.
Sometimes I just wish I could feel nothing as much as I wish I could feel you.
During the sleepless night,I used to just lay there in my bed and try to find a reason.
A reason to stay...
A reason to leave...
A reason to give up...
A reason to believe...
A reason to remember...
A reason to forget...
A reason to love...
A reason to hate...
A reason just about everything.
I wonder where did I go wrong? What's wrong with me?
I got tired of finding a reason so I stopped.
Sometimes all you need is just to stop for a minute.
More stupid questions will only lead to more stupid answers.
Not everything happen for a reason.
Flashback memories might kill,
but they come and go as well as feelings.
Nothing is simple in life,
Why make them more complicated anyway?
This I told myself.
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