♥Truth hurt

Am having insomnia again...Can't believe that I just had my super late supper @ super early breakfast!The massive headache is killing me...One of my friends was chatting with me yesterday night,we talked about life...and she described it in a word:awesome...-.- when she asked me how's mine,I replied:awful...truthfully,great things will never happened in my life,okay,maybe it does,just seldom!If chocolate is bittersweet,I 'll always get to taste the bitterness,If there's up and down for roller-coaster,then I'll always stay at down there.Hurt,ain't it?
I know it sounds stupid but I do cry in the middle of the night and covered my teary face with my teddy,and I cried damn lot!That could explain on why my eyes always seem swollen...-.- I could not tell anyone about my grief,there's no way better than crying in my sleep.Sometimes,friends cannot be counted on.They might betray us,they might turn their head away when you need help...Human cannot be trusted at all...sigh!
And so I'm almost in the dead end now...Oh Jesus,needs help seriously,do rescue me...

Never let life's hardships disturb you ...
no one can avoid problems,
not even saints or sages.
♥G

♥Rant...again

Honestly,I was taken aback by an incident happened on my dear.Why on earth would someone be so childish and idiotic eh?It's just a minor offence,or perhaps it wasn't even a kind of offence anyway.So,here's the story goes,my dear has several contact number and there's this one number that hasn't been in use for a year,and hence it's in inactive state now for sure,eventually the communication provider has sold this particular number to another person.And the problems came,my dear forgotten to acknowledge all her friends about this matter since not much of her classmates know about this un-used number and everyone know that her main contact is the other number.She's obviously unaware of this thing untill today.Because a victim wants too break off their friendship,and she get a hint of what happenned on that split second.
That victim received a vulgar message few days ago after sending my dear a message to inform her that the victim herself is not going to campus the next morning,the victim used to fetch my dear to campus most of the time because they are classmates.Apparently the victim send that message to all my dear's contact number.And so she got it from the current owner for my dear's previous number.
To make the matter worse,the victim insisted that my dear abuse her verbally,I mean c'mon la,you didn't even bother to even suspicious of that matter,or try to interrogate what actually happens!!!And you both have been friends for more than a year,yet you don't trust her characteristic or give her a chance to explain things up or proof that she's innocent,at least let her talk things through!!!It was just that two words " FUCK YOU" and dare I say,did that message kill you,MISS???YOU should be tagged of the Hyper Drama Queen!!!You tell people who are close to you and words SPREAD you know???I bet you don't know because you are DUMB!Those who are consent about this matter and never let the person slandered (I mean my dear) know about this is totally asshole and lame!!!You guys don't deserved to be called friends at all!!!
My dear cried non-stop once she stepped into her room.We advice her to call the network provider to check the message transaction.Initially,she thought someone use her 016 to prank that victim,but it turn out that it's wrong.Because the phone has no credit by last week and she haven't reload anyway,the network provider also proved that there isn't any message transaction on that particular day.
That's driving us up the wall you know???Cause that so-called victim didn't bother to reveal which number it actually is,my dear confronted most of her friends and tried so hard to make them convince that victim to unveil the whole thing.She even call her herself to explain she didn't do it!Guess what,that victim scolded my dear and said : why don't you just apologize??It's just that simple,why are you so dumb?You don't have to explain anything or proof that you're innocent!There's no use.It has too much coincidence and I won't believe you!I don't care about this but if you apologize I won't talk about this matter anymore.........
When my dear know which number it was,she called the concerned network provider and found out that a malay girl has bought that number for her boyfriend.Since that victim doesn't give a damn,my dear call the number and talk with the owner.It happens that the new owner received plenty of messages and calls from unknown people,which are my dear's friends,he got annoyed so when that victim messaged him that night,the new owner replied with vulgar words.
I know my dear has done a stupid mistake by forgetting to inform her friends about the change of numbers.But hey,everyone knew she uses which number now!!!Where's your common sense???She had apologize and will apologize again and again and again!!!Why wouldn't you believe your friend?There's enough evidence!!!Why are you still acting up like a 3 year-old???This is truly ridiculous...I will never understand why you behave in such a barbarian manner!She's not the one who send it,and she didn't meant to make this happenned!!!Are you really a GROWN UP?This kind of things happen most of the time on everyone,why are you taking it so seriously like you'll die if you saw that F word??WAKE UP la...she tried so hard to explain to you because she still treasure and cherish the friendship!!!Why you don't even bother to care since she already clarified to the whole world??She has been slandered badly,do you realize this has been ruining her reputation and will affect her life???She's afraid of going for classes now...and are you happy now???Face the wall and think deeply,VICTIM!!!
If you still think that she must be punished in this way for 'offending' you,let me make my words clear,you deserved to be fuck over twice as bad!!!Cheapskate...

Choose your friends carefully you never know who is on your side,
and remember the truth shall prevail...
♥G

♥viva la familia

At last I watched Angels & Demons,a great flick indeed...time flies...now it's sunday morning...Happy Father's Day to all daddys in the world =]
Hate the feel that Monday is coming again...There's just too much pressure I need to cope with!Honestly I never wanted a degree from local varsities,neither public nor private U.I never liked it here...don't get me wrong,I love malaysia but not the malaysian style academic.But I have no choice as my parents urged me to stay.
See,the way the admin. staff handle things in UTAR absolutely sucks!!!They dunno how to differentiate URGENT and UNIMPORTANT...wtf...I bet there're students who felt the same way I did...the bus schedule,the timetable,the cafeteria,the faculty management...it's all CRAP!!!If time can ever turn backward,I'd wanna change alot of things in my life...
I miss my childhood,I miss my secondary school life,I miss my carefree days,I miss everything in the city too...and I miss my families whole damn lot...*hugs* I love you guys =) Daddy and mommy,Please forgive me for being unfilial,stubborn,bad-tempered and all my wrongdoings during all these years.I never meant to bring a string of heartaches to both of you...Sorry for not being there with the family when you guys needed me most!I really care and love the family,you guys mean alot to me!!!*kisses*

craving for foods again...
miss mamak...
miss roti planta and teh ais...
I pray to god:Please bless my families with good health and strong will...
♥G

♥My rant

Slept at 7am sharp and woke up at 2 something in the afternoon...I was actually wondering what's with the blissful chit-chatting voices came thundering from the room adjacent to mine...Due to the curiosity and the need of gossiping,I can't believe that I actually sacrificed my own beauty sleep...*slap myself*
What to do?I interrupted my own sleep,can only blame myself cuz I asked for it.Unable to continue the sleep once I'm awaken...*pfft*So I have lunch after a nice warm shower...watched an episode of a dunno-what-title chinese drama while munching on the chicken...weeeee...
Just realized that I sort of neglected my reading habit for quite sometimes hehz...darl,where's my twilight saga as you've promised to find for me ages ago??Better be fast or I'll woop your ass...lolz
It's already half past five now...and today is saturday,I can't wait to watch my favourite astro programme...lolz...Support him fully,woohoo...Really hope he can win the title back!*finger-crossed*
Hmm...it's weird it's too quiet,thou I finally have a peace of mind but still,I miss their voices...lmao...two were back to their respective hometown and the other went for 'massive-dating' in Epoh...hahahaha...and my best partner is sleeping soundly like a pig in infront of me...swt...
I suddenly remembered that I was cheesed off by a call...erm,not one but several by the same person....this early morning!I think I was just started to sleep that time,and he called and called and called...non-stop!!!Initially I ignored it,then I set the phone to silent mode but he kept calling and calling,WTF...My hp kept vibrating on the desk!I guess he will never knew that hp can be used for texting too...@$%#&&%!#&@$%...At last,I picked up the call cuz seriously I can't tolerate with the abusive disturbance anymore...So I shoot that son of bitch like hell after he said hello...I'll never pity him!He's calling to remind me of handing up a singing contest form,and according to the stated rules,the form can be submitted the day before the contest,which means next saturday!!!I have no idea why he's soooo nervous about it...It's his gf who handed me the form weeks ago,and the form was actually ragged in shape =.= And she told me that he's one of the authorities,now I'm starting to doubt it.For I don't even know her that well,she's barely the friend of my friend at first,I knew her not more than 3 weeks and we only met once for dinner...
I know alot of people are trying to dig my secret,let me clarify this,I have no secrets at all,it was you stupid guys who believe what rumours had on me,and that's certainly not true,I am who I am and I acted in the way I like and live the life I wanted.Whether I like to conceal myself or not,that's none of your business,get a life plz!!!Take me as I am cuz that girl will remain mystery,and she'll made it to history someday...

Leave her alone,don't mess with her life...
She will never forget and forgive those who hurt her...
She's not fake,She's mean...
she's ME...
♥G

♥Lost

It's over 5am now ,and I can' t sleep again...Sipping my cup of mocha,drifting my mind away...I had only one meal yesterday...YES...only one meal and I'm damn hungry right now,it's all because I was sooo pissed off with my darl and at last ended up in a fierce fight...oh my wrists were badly wounded too...I was freakin in rage by then so I felt no appetite at all...but everything is alright now!We're back together and cool with each other...I think he is pretty clear about the 'rules and boundaries' NOW...dun cha ever mess with me anymore...I won't forgive you the next time you did it again...
I don't wanna blog about the sad things cuz I only wanna remember the happy memories...So no more solemn stories here...booo...but there's not even one happy thingy happenned yesterday...wth...unless meeting up with A and prove that his eyebrow is sooo actually reddish for real...lmao...did that counted as happy news,nope?hehz...
Sometimes I envy my friends,I know I'm not a beauty material,but it kinda lowered down my self-esteem when they're surrounded by guys while I'm not...why am I always in the middle of the same-sex group?blaah...I'm not that unattractive anyway...maybe I'm too cool for them eh?
Thou I'm not that desperately in search of a boy,a prince,a potential husband or whatever you wanna call it,I'd like to feel that I am loved by someone...and not by girls!!!I have had enough of admirations from girls and totally freak out by it now...
Hey crushers,please do let me know if you're hooked up to me...weeeeee...=)
Think I gotta get myself a new organiser,I've been so lazy lately I'm not following the flow of my plan...ish ish...really worried about the progress of my stupid assignments...worried about my mid-term,my presentations,the interviews,my final,my future,my life...arghhh...Everything sorta get on my nerves and I need to crave for desserts to de-stressed myself...*mooch*
Am I actually thinking too much???shall I just leave my destiny to god???I'm lost...

miss you much =]
♥G

♥Too much

There's too much things to forget and I'm always worrying the little things that I need to remember most are starting to fade away...I hate my current life,I'm in deep shit and I can't pull myself out of this miseries!I miss my old life,I want my old-self back!Every bit of seconds is making me crazy,there's too much things to do,and I'm lack of initiative and motivation to do what I once love...My mind is in a frequent chaotic state...not knowing what I'm doing most of the time.That girl gone blurred...

i still lurve you =]
♥G