♥Lost

It's over 5am now ,and I can' t sleep again...Sipping my cup of mocha,drifting my mind away...I had only one meal yesterday...YES...only one meal and I'm damn hungry right now,it's all because I was sooo pissed off with my darl and at last ended up in a fierce fight...oh my wrists were badly wounded too...I was freakin in rage by then so I felt no appetite at all...but everything is alright now!We're back together and cool with each other...I think he is pretty clear about the 'rules and boundaries' NOW...dun cha ever mess with me anymore...I won't forgive you the next time you did it again...
I don't wanna blog about the sad things cuz I only wanna remember the happy memories...So no more solemn stories here...booo...but there's not even one happy thingy happenned yesterday...wth...unless meeting up with A and prove that his eyebrow is sooo actually reddish for real...lmao...did that counted as happy news,nope?hehz...
Sometimes I envy my friends,I know I'm not a beauty material,but it kinda lowered down my self-esteem when they're surrounded by guys while I'm not...why am I always in the middle of the same-sex group?blaah...I'm not that unattractive anyway...maybe I'm too cool for them eh?
Thou I'm not that desperately in search of a boy,a prince,a potential husband or whatever you wanna call it,I'd like to feel that I am loved by someone...and not by girls!!!I have had enough of admirations from girls and totally freak out by it now...
Hey crushers,please do let me know if you're hooked up to me...weeeeee...=)
Think I gotta get myself a new organiser,I've been so lazy lately I'm not following the flow of my plan...ish ish...really worried about the progress of my stupid assignments...worried about my mid-term,my presentations,the interviews,my final,my future,my life...arghhh...Everything sorta get on my nerves and I need to crave for desserts to de-stressed myself...*mooch*
Am I actually thinking too much???shall I just leave my destiny to god???I'm lost...

miss you much =]
♥G