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Just penned some comments at my friend's blog. Reading her post made me recalled back the bad and dark memories I had before. I can still feel the pain. It's not easy to let go and move on because they're the closest to us. I had struggled for some time and luckily I chose to forget and forgive. Because I realize there's no point holding on to the grudges or wrath, I have a life to live through. Maybe he treats you like dirt, that's what you think. I tried to think from their perspective sometimes, why they shout at me like that, why are they always so harsh to me?Yea, I deserve a better acknowledgement and respect. So I used to talk back too and being so mischievous and rebellious , causing them a string of heartaches. But what do you get in return after the so-called tantrum scenarios? Will you feel happier? You hurt your loved ones too, just like the way they did to you. When I looked back what I did, I saw a repetition of mistakes. Perhaps they tried to disprove me, but it doesn't matter cause I know I'll never disappoint myself. Maybe I failed to live up to their expectations but I know I've did my best and this is enough. I'll change their mindset if they can't change their attitude. Time will prove and prevail everything. They might not be proud of me but I'll always be proud to be their daughter. I give thanks somehow. Even though he still scold me out of nothing nowadays and blame me for being irresponsible on the things I'm not related to, I pretend that I don't care. Though I will weep inside my blanket in the middle of the night, I feel it's alright. There's no point adding sorrows to their lives,they're old and I don't wanna feel sorry or regret if anything bad happens. And I'm not trying to be angelic or pretend to be filial. I meant what I said. They have their equal right to voice out their opinion too, though it may be a little vulgar and wrong in the perception, just let it be, take it as a random rant, pretend that they're mumbling, grumbling or babbling,whatever that makes you feel better. We, the younger generation are pretty good at that, aren't we? Just practice that skill,it does helps. Cherish the bond you have with them...it's hard but you'll find miracles in it sooner or later. At least it works on me.

Best of Lucks.

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